This year has been a long and difficult one for me. Albeit with lots of good things and high points. It was a relief to come to the end of the last semester, close my office door, and welcome the holidays. The busyness of Christmas is now over too, and here I am, a month of unplanned days ahead of me, ready for the new…
So where to begin?
I learnt long ago the value of letting something, especially something of value to me, go. Because, once I let it go, a new space opened up.
I remember clearly sitting in the living room of my small apartment, having just agreed to a joint exhibition with a good friend. “Is that one going to be in the show?” she asked, looking at a large, blueish, and oh so personal painting on my wall. At first, I didn’t want to include it. It was my favourite, the best work I felt I had ever done. Which is exactly why it ended up in the show, and was the first, although the most expensive, work to be sold.
After the exhibition, back in my living room, looking at the blank space on the wall, I imagined my special painting in its new home, eliciting its own brand of recognition from the man who had fallen in love with it. Instead of feeling a gap, as I had expected, I felt the stirring of new ideas. The gap was only on the wall, and calling for something new to fill it.
So where did I start this holiday? Clearing out my studio. Six black garbage bags full of old stuff. Old drawings, old writings, old ideas that I had kept for years. It was time to make way for the new.
What exactly will emerge, I am not sure yet. I will let the new ideas and images flow in with the new year, of their own volition.
How will you welcome in the new for 2018? Are you going to do something different this time round? I’d love to hear about your new beginnings.